So guess what I did last night? I went to my 5th Hanson concert

cc Photo by Rebecca Bollwitt

I love Hanson. I am a devoted fan and have been for about 15 years now. Everyone who knows me KNOWS that they are my favorite band and has been forced to listen to the million reasons that I love these guys. At a time when fame is fleeting and young celebrities often fall to addiction or scandal, Isaac, Taylor, and Zac are not cut from the same cloth. For one thing, they put out real, clean, inspired music. They are grounded and family oriented, devoted to their music and to philanthropic work with their organization Take the Walk. And on top of all of that awesomeness, they are incredibly talented. They are the whole package — singers, musicians, and songwriters. They just ooze creativity and originality…and yeah, hotness

So you might be thinking, “I didn’t even know those kids were still around? They’re actually still playing concerts and putting out albums?” UM, YES! They never stopped. And they still have a really strong fan base. I’m talking crazy devoted fans. And we are devoted because they are genuinely good guys that are incredibly passionate about what they do.

From last nights show…. so much <3 and greatness!

So what have the brothers of Hanson taught me about passion?

Do what you love; love what you do. Anyone who has seen Hanson perform live can feel their passion when they play their music. The music they play is their own creation and something that they are obviously proud of. They have fun and you can see it in their faces. I’m sure they have their bad days — we all do — but you can really tell that they are doing what they love and have followed their hearts to build their career.

Don’t sell out. The guys have managed to stay grounded and committed to their beliefs consistently throughout their career. There was a point early in their career where they could have sold out to try and follow the trends, but they didn’t. They stayed firm in their beliefs and stayed true to their music. In fact, they have become even more focused on their passion and goals as they grew up. They’ve found ways to use their music to partner with other groups working to bring relief to those who need it in Africa. If what others want from you is not the vision that you have for yourself, you’ll come to the point where you have to decide to stay true to your passion or sell out. It’s inspiring to see stories where people have stayed true and faithful to what they are passionate about.

Don’t give up. 15 years later and these guys are still making and playing music. In the music industry, that’s a long freakin’ time. Especially for a group whose oldest member is 30. And I have faith that they still have many years of beautiful music making ahead of them. Knowing what you’re passionate about at a young age is rare. Sticking with it even when it isn’t easy is seen even less. I consider myself blessed to have learned what I am truly passionate about so early in my career. I know that there are so many days where it would be easier if I could just let it go and just do what’s necessary, but I don’t think I could be content to just coast (and I hope I never find out!).

Don’t be afraid to put yourself out there and mix things up. Even though Hanson still embraces their past (and always play MmmBop at a concert), they are always trying new things and putting themselves out there. Taylor collaborated with an amazing group of artists and they put out an album as the band Tinted Windows (I had to travel to NYC to see them perform, but thats a whole different topic about obsession, not to be confused with passion). Hanson is currently on their Musical Ride Tour and they are crowd sourcing each performance, so to speak. Those attending at each venue have the chance to vote from three of their released albums to select which will make up the bulk of the songs played for that night. Talk about trying something a little off the wall! They have to be able to play basically off the cuff any song from their five major albums. They aren’t afraid to push themselves musically, and the results are always amazing.

These three brothers from Tulsa, Oklahoma inspire me, as they have for many years. Their music has been known to perk me up on a bad day. Seeing them in concert evokes the crazy emotions of my crazy 13 year old self. But most importantly, they set the example of what it means to commit yourself to do what you love and follow your passion.

I also love and am inspired by my BFF Desti! We have shared our Hanson love since middle school! I wish I had pictures of us to post from all 5 of our shows, but this is from last night…such a great time!

Beware of this post. It’s been building up for a while. It’s my honest thoughts that have been brewing inside me for weeks now.

No one told me that being a change agent and trying to make progress happen was going to be this hard. This is how I feel:

I feel like we really aren’t getting anywhere. I worry that I have a major philosophy difference with decision makers. I worry that the vision I have, what I want to see and experience in an education environment isn’t realistic. I worry that I live in a place that is too traditional for my way of thinking. I worry that I’ll never be at a place where I can feel “THIS is it” and that I won’t be content until I’m there. I’m consumed. I’m incensed. I’m exhausted. I know what I want for my students — I’ve seen it in what some of my colleagues are doing around the country. My kids deserve it. I try so hard to make it happen. Change is hard. Change is slow. Change doesn’t feel like it’s happening for me. I’m tired of having these thoughts so many times every day. I’m tired of feeling frustrated. I’m tired.

I need to disconnect, regroup, and re-prioritize. I’m going to take a break from fighting battles. But I can’t yet because I have too much in the works. I’m thinking the middle of next week would be a good time to schedule a break. And this fact alone probably sums up my issues pretty well.

So this is where I am right now. No easy solution, no resolution to my internal turmoil. Some reassurance that this is necessary or that it will lead to progress would be nice, but probably not a realistic hope. So I’m going to try to keep calm and carry on. I saw that on a poster somewhere, right? So first I’m going to try to find some calm and go from there.

Rambling over.